Uncertain Future

So for a while now, I have been contemplating going back to school to receive my master's degree in human development and family studies because I would like to be a birth/labor educator. One of my professors from the department inspired me because she opened my eyes to this whole other world of alternative medicine and alternative methods of birth and child rearing in general. My undergraduate grades weren't that great and I'm worried about getting into the program. So now I think I'm going to attend Ivy Tech for nursing. It would only be a two year program and the starting pay for an RN is much higher than what I would make if I got my masters degree and worked as an educator. Plus I could still do the birth education thing with a nursing degree but I have a lot of other options as well and I have the potential of making much higher pay. Some day I may even go onto receive my masters degree but instead in nursing and with a certificate in midwifery which I also am interested in. Soooo....I have a lot to think about and some decisions to make.

I am also in the process of getting ready to move back to Bloomington. Half of my stuff is packed up and I've got everything set to go but I still have another month until I move. I wanted to get stuff ready early because Isaac's wedding is in two weeks and there's a lot going on with that. I'm excited about being back in Bloomington and near Brandon and my friends. It will be nice to have my own place too. :)

Things are looking up

I got great news yesterday. I got promoted which comes with a small raise. I am now in charge of the entire night shift....now if we could fully get back to work on night shift. I'm getting a little tired of working day shift because of the nature of the work.

I also signed the lease on my new apartment yesterday. Hopefully I'll get to move in on the day that I want and I'll be moving in just about 2 months. It will be nice to be back in Bloomington and with Brandon again.

I feel old

I ran across some old music videos, well late 90s, so when I was in junior high school. It makes me feel old and it makes me realize how much MTV has gone downhill. I'm assuming kids today don't care about what MTV has become mainly because they don't remember how it used to be or maybe they actually like the crappy reality shows aired in the place of music now. While listening to Semisonic and Eve 6, I reminisced about the days when I didn't have cable TV at home and got to watch it as a rare treat while babysitting. My life was so carefree. I miss those days. Music back then was actually good. I could turn on the radio to top 40 and I enjoyed it. Now rap and hip hop has taken over, the videos for them are crap and I'm having trouble finding rock videos anywhere on tv. I wish I could warp back to when I was 13 and watching videos at midnight on a Saturday night.

I've been sick the past few days...well, I still am sick although doing much better. I don't realize how much I take my health for granted until I feel like this.

My day off

I'm exhausted from working out. It feels good though. I rewarded myself with frozen cool whip. If you freeze it, it tastes just like ice cream. It has almost no calories too. :) I think next time I'll try strawberry.

I've spent the day watching movies, working on ChaCha and doing laundry; a pretty relaxing day. I needed the day off. Lately I've spent a lot of time in Bloomington and even though I love the boy with all my heart, there such a thing as too much of a good thing. It's been nice to spend the past couple of days by myself relaxing.

I'm getting really excited about Valentine's Day. I love buying gifts for others and surprising them. If I had the funds to do so, I'd buy Brandon gifts everyday but since I don't, I do what I can. I've been working on this gift for a few months now and I hope he appreciates it.

It will finally be warming up beginning tomorrow and I can start running outside again which makes me really happy. I love winter and snow but this year I've been really annoyed by it. I think it's partly due to my hour long commute to work and the multiple rounds of ice we got early on(one of which left me stranded on Hwy 37 for 6 hours while trying to get home for Christmas!). I'm actually starting to consider Brandon's suggestions of moving someplace warm. I keep thinking of Orlando. I wouldn't really mind that. I have family in the area and there's Disney nearby or even California because it's so beautiful and again, Disney. :) Maybe next year when I move back to Bloomington, I'll change my mind and fall in love with winter again. Right now though I'm anxiously waiting for spring.

Back in the habit

I was finally able to come home yesterday after being snowed in at Brandon's house for a while. We got 12.8 inches of snow and it was beautiful but I'm glad to be back at my apartment again. I was able to catch up on all of my shows. The DVR was full of stuff to watch and I can't stand when it's full. I like having a lot of shows to watch but it feels cluttered to me when it's full and it bothers me.

I worked out this morning. I only did 15 minutes on the elliptical but I haven't been on it in almost 2 weeks due to being in Bloomington and I upped the resistance on it so I feel like I did well. I'm going to wait to do my pushups and crunches until I'm at Brandon's later today because he does a good job in pushing me and making sure I am doing them correctly.

My bathroom and closet are in serious need of cleaning which I can't understand since I haven't really been here to mess them up. I suppose I'll go do that when I get off of here. My closet is pretty large, actually larger than my bathroom, and I have a bad habit of throwing stuff in there when I don't want to actually clean so there are bags and boxes of random stuff and now I can't reach the clothes in the back. That will be my project for today. :)

The 1st!

I have attempted to keep a blog in the past and failed. I am determined to keep at this. I sort of failed at keeping some of my New Year's goals I set for myself so I'm going to start my new year tomorrow, February 1. My first is this blog. It is a way for me to get my feelings out, to document what is happening in my life and for others to keep up on what is happening with me as well.

My second goal is to lose the 60 pounds I said I would for Isaac's wedding. I have a bet involving a Tiffany's necklace riding on this one so it's pretty important! The boy has been doing so well and has lost a lot of weight. I'm really proud of him. He's done such a good job.

My third and probably most important goal is to work on my relationship. I haven't been the best girlfriend lately. I have issues steming from past failed relationships and insecurities which in the end are self-fufilling prophecies. I need to relax, not worry and just live. This will be the most important and probably the hardest.

I will continue to post about my progress with my goals and keep everybody updated on my life!